distracted...11:15pm

I have been staying distracted but accomplishing nothing…

I have been completing courses but not really getting into them, especially that last one…that must change, I have a very involved course that begins on Tuesday. So distractions are out with the wind, and it’s about focus. I can be focused and moving all the day long as long as I am checking items off my list…

Tomorrow begins the workout, I’ve got to take my mother somewhere in the morning, I might as well hit the gym on the way home. Laundry and my mail is also on my list this weekend, I’d like to have my taxes filed and my FASFA completed.

No weekend treats of mental distractions, I’ve been out the last two weekends and tequila and I have been way too close lately...

5 Star Chick....

Ha Ha, went out tonight and the DJ had a hype man….what the heck? It was hilarious…so the hype man did this chant on the mic talking about 5 star “…” so now it’s 5 Star TK!!!

Well my class begins on Tuesday, I hadn’t realized…my room is a MESS clothes everywhere, some mail that’s sorted to be filed, some that needs to be taken care of and some to be shredded….so I need to do laundry & get my paperwork together….

So I guess I won’t be hitting the town for a while, too much work needing to be done…

5 Star TK OUT!!!

My Old Thing...

My old thing is ruining everything in my life right now....

I am irritated, and I am typically not an irritated person and I hate being irritated and irritable, lets face it the ish ain't cute....
I'm emotional...red eyes do not a new date make....
I'm crazy, I'm questioning everything I know...I even contemplate getting back with him....

Us getting back together is NOT a good look, it's not going to happen if it happened, I would be the most miserable chick in the world...I freaking know this, so why do I act like I want to be back with him????

I feel like I'm freaking CRAZY, I know I'm ready to be ON TO THE NEXT ONE

I'm just scared of what I do not know, we haven't been together for the last 2 years....and also, I haven't slept with him since last March...so what the fuck do I think I'm not walking away from??? I mean I've already clearly walked away from the situation, so why am I acting as though the world will crash if I fully & completely walk away and leave the past behind me...

WHAT AM I AFRAID OF????

I don't like this feeling and I'm not sure of what I really think is going to happen...

I know that this is not the love of my life anymore, I know that this person is extremely selfish, I know that he is sooo full of his self that he thinks he's right about everything, he does not fight fair, he's a bully, I know that he thinks he knows everything...I believe that his general bad attitude is holding him back from everything....

I know that I am decisive & haste....but I cannot keep regretting, I feel fear and remorse for so many things that we have been through, but I also know I was not in a relationship by myself and I cannot control & create a perfect relationship for two, when I am only one!!

I GOTTA GO, GOTTA LEAVE....I'm soooo ready for something NEW!!!! OLD must roll out...I'm not taking this to my birthday

Random

So I really more than anything am just testing this out. Am I able to post from my phone...I thought I could but I guess I'll have to check on that app. Can I log into other computers and what is that darn new password...so I'm at work and I'm able to log in....

So later, I will upload a picture and look for the app...

HAVE A GREAT DAY...for all the readers, I don't have....LOL!

Me & Technology

So the above post was me posting from the phone...not tooo successful...but the funniest thing is, I said I wanted a blog, on the laptop I signed up for two new email addy's uploaded the info for both into the phone and signed up for a blogger acct....well then I forgot which email did I use for the blogger acct?? wt-hay?? too goofy, but I figured it out and was able to log on from my phone and post a blog with no content...tomorrow when I'm in from work, I will check if there's an app for that...LOL

ENOUGH WITH THE RANDOM POSTING...LOL...

~~~~Sweet Dreams

new job???

I decided I wanted to start blogging...I don't mind making a public diary, trust I AIN'T telling erything...I am not even sure who I'm going to let read it from people I already know....right now I don't even know what I'll write about it took forever to come up with this name, even though it's mine....

So I'm 37 I'm fabulously single, but wearily in a complicated situation...I'm a creative girl...I'm excited about living ALONE, you know, for the decorative aspects and the closet space, of course...I currently don't live alone but I don't co-habitate in the complicated situation....whew...at least there's that...LOL...

So I read a bunch of creative blogs and I've always thought this might be something I'd like to incorporate into my life, so here it is...I hope I didn't just give myself a new job...I have plenty

I don't know what I'm trying to accomplish here, but something is going on...